Rainy Day

photoIt’s been raining all day, and I’m sitting in my office, waiting for the Apostles’ Creed footage to finish transcoding. Transcoding– should have happened weeks ago, but life has it’s way with us. The monkey is on my back. I’m not sure why we use a monkey to symbolize overwork… probably because of their annoying tendencies, although Wade could tell you more technically what exactly they would do to cause discomfort. I feel a monkey isn’t the best image though. You know what I’m talking about: the weight of a grand piano on your shoulders, a tug boat of caffeine chugging through your veins. Perhaps there is a monkey, pulling grey into your hair– or just pulling it out altogether. Priscilla Ahn and Camera Obscura play in the background, mournfully moving the second hand toward the morning.

The morning makes all things better– and naps on rainy afternoons.

Johnson Family2The Apostles’ Creed shoot looks delectable. The footage is crisp and clear, thanks for Eric. The only thing I keep thinking as I go through editing is that the director needs to be fired. I hope this is just discouragement at the large number of mistakes, and that it can be curbed simply by the shear volume of footage we have. There has to be enough fluke good shots in there to compensate for bumbling. Let’s hope it comes together. My sweat and tears are certainly being poured into it to make it come together.

A different sort of thing

The endpiece next to the unfinished main section

My new bookshelves are becoming newer every week!

My first non-school summer is drawing to a close. Oddly enough, it has been a good summer and the off and on panic of my first August sans classes is not as prevalent as I thought it might be. Work continues (at work we are driven by the academic year; perhaps this connection helps my own loss of classes?). Post-work work also continues: the arts collaboration New City Arts Initiative is finally rolling off of its own inertia (we’ve received non-profit status, are working on a new website and communications system, and have plans for several cool projects), Lychgate Productions is requiring more and more energy, and my housing search warranted a full time salary for about a week. Fortunately, all of these seem to survive even if I can’t give 110% to each of them at every moment. Even so…

Not many weeks go by that I don’t question what I am doing in Charlottesville… what I am doing with my life, when my sparse collection of hopes and dreams seem to vanish like the morning fog… or even more often, when the fog of exhaustion and work seems so thick that not even the fiercest beam of hope could pierce through. I am amazed that at these times, the thing that relieves the confusion and discouragement in as simple as a different kind of work.

I’m undergoing an effort to refinish a set of (probably) homemade bookshelves. When acquired, they were dark with age, yellowed and scratched beyond recognition. Amazing what a little time, love and sweat can do.

I am not always so adrift with gloom. Though the fog is thick, light does shine through. It can be as simple as a run or the thought that I am actually working on a fun and meaningful project (yes, the shelves, but also with Lychgate). A friend and photographer took pictures of Wade and I for use on our website, and we are moving closer to finding a cinematographer for our intro clip.

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